Here I’m sitting in the kitchen with my netbook up on the
table, forcing my fingers to move along the keys typing things that I don’t
really want to, thinking about things that I’ve been trying to avoid, and
listening to a song that I found on a new blog that I’ve been reading. Everyone
needs to check out Wild Country by Wake Owl. Wow. That’s music my friends.
Exactly my style that I absolutely love, that I could put on repeat for days
and days and still be moved by the words that are sung. Anyway. I should stop
procrastinating and just get to what it is that I (don’t) want to write. --
Dear struggling highschool you,
Why do you care so much? About the things you think other
people do? Is it worth losing sleep worrying about the things you do? Trust me,
staying up late rereading quickly scribbled notes for a class that could have
easily put you asleep is not worth it. You’re only going to do as good as what
your potential is. And frankly, maybe science isn’t your thing after all.
Accept it, admit it, move on. Falling to peer pressure is not worth it either.
You definitely did not need to funnel who-knows-what in 4 seconds flat, just to
be cheered on for 5 seconds after. No crowd lifts a drunk high in the air
without dropping them eventually anyway. And nobody deserves broken bones. Or a
burning throat. Forcing yourself to do things you hate isn’t worth it either.
If you don’t like an extracurricular activity, don’t do it. Sounds simple, but
it’s pretty hard when the majority of your friends are involved and all you
want to do and all you want to achieve is just to be simply accepted. That’s
why you signed up in the first place, right? Oh, innocent grade six you, if you
only knew… to belong should never have to sacrifice. It’s okay to quit what you
hate. Medals on the wall do not replace the weekends and time you missed for
your family. Period. It’s okay to feel alone sometimes. There’s no worse
feeling than seeing a hallway full of people, but having no one to share the
space beside you with. Embrace that moment. This is where you’re going to learn
who truly are inside. Don’t let the negative feelings and thoughts consume you –
they lie, and they steal. You’re worth it. Keep doing what you’re doing,
because you are strong. Don’t let anything or anyone tell you otherwise.
Always, always, always believe this. Get help if you can’t. You’re going to
make mistakes. Learn from them. Because you’re going to grow from no matter what
you did. And nobody wants to grow up to be a weed. Weeds aren’t cool… and
nobody likes weeds :). Do not judge. You were once that kid who didn’t have a
friend to hang around with because your weirdness was just too much for a
person to handle. Don’t let other people hear you speak an opinion about
someone else. Ever. If you absolutely feel like you have to, keep those
thoughts to yourself. Always do. Because those thoughts are going to be running
back, and the finger will be pointing at you. Be honest with yourself. Do not
trick yourself into thinking that driving with a drunk driver is ever okay. It’s
not. Because eventually you’re going to start to believe that it’s okay for YOU
to drive drunk. And that is never, ever okay. Your life is worth so much more
than that 15 cent 60 oz empty bottle you just wasted on that yield sign at the
intersection before last. There’s so much more to life than drunken nights and
smashed glass. Don’t believe those who tell you differently – because they do
not know what to think. There is so many cliques. Honestly, you can’t avoid
them. It’s of human nature to want to feel like you belong. Find one that you
can be you in. You should never feel uncomfortable or awkward. Unless you
actually are awkward… then find awkward people like you and talk about the awkward
things you do. Maybe you aren’t actually awkward and all this time you thought
that you were awkward, you were actually normal. More normal than skinny jeans,
fake nails, and big boobs anyway. Mature men don’t play with barbies. That’s
all I’m going to say. Take some time for you. Do the things you like to do.
Feed those entertaining thoughts, and be creative with who you are. You’re
going to go far in life. You’re going to achieve things you would never believe
you ever could. This loneliness will pass. And when you graduate, you will
never, ever look back. Because those are just memories and lessons learned. It’s
time to move on at last. Always remember. This is you. This is your life. These
are your choices.
Take care of yourself,
A new MESIDE NOTE: A new Video of the Week has been posted. It seems like years since I changed that, soooo you should check it out. Also write me comments. Lots of them. Because comments are cool. And I think you're cool. :) :D