20 seconds. That’s how long it will take you to wait at a
red light at the intersection of Park & Dewdney at 9:25 pm on a Friday
night. I’m sitting on the deck off of my backdoor right now facing a dark alley
listening to Z99’s top hit list and the sound of rubber on pavement travelling
at 100 km/hr on ring road. Since I live upstairs of a duplex, I feel safe
sitting out here at night. The night crawlers of the evening cannot eat me when
I’m a story high in the air. Haha J
It’s a rather quiet night in my neighbourhood. Besides the minuscule
traffic noise, it reminds me of taking walks in my small town either by myself
or a pack of friends late on summer nights. It makes me miss it. But
reminiscing does that to person. I am thankful I am in Regina now. I’ve met
some great people while living here and I think despite the freedoms of small
town living; I can get over myself, and accept the timed green, yellow, red. I’m
already in love the clink clank of the train passing through every five or so
minutes at night; the horn blaring, playing as my lullaby. I find it now that
without the noise pollution that the trains creates, it’s incredibly hard for
me to fall asleep. Call me crazy, but I’m just an honest person.
I’m not sure how much longer I can last out here. It’s
getting a little chilly – even with two shirts and a sweater on. But I refused
to stay in my dark, stuffy room when I know I have a porch light outside and
that air is fresher. City fresh that is. But that’s as good as it gets
and I’m okay with it.
If you were to ask me at the beginning of the week if I was
looking forward to staying in Regina over the summer, I’d shrug my shoulders at
you and give you a “I don’t know, don’t ask me questions that I don’t know the
answers to” look. But if you were to ask me the same question tonight, I’d
smile at you. I have a good feeling about it. God has put some great people in
my life and I know that I can benefit from it.
Mmm… someone’s doing laundry. Saying “mmm” is a weird thing
to write but something about taking in the sweet smell of Tide and Bounce is
refreshing to me. Someone has some serious motivation to get their laundry done
on a Friday night. But what do I know about motivation; I’m sitting on my deck
freezing my toes off while I write on a virtual piece of paper because I’m too
lazy to do much else. Ooohh, an alley vehicle creeper. Some movement down
yonder!
Nevermind. It’s just my neighbor that I’ve never met that
pulled into their gravel driveway.
I can’t remember nor do I feel like checking (another
reflection of my self motivation) if I mentioned that I joined a Young Adults
group. I joined back in February or so and I only have one regret about this –
that I didn’t join sooner. I would go as far as saying that it’s changing my
life. There’s some great people in that group and I’ve never felt so much
encouragement in my life. I find though, that sometimes when I think about it
too much (which is often – too often), or look into the bible study deeper than
need be, I begin to doubt more and start to convince myself indirectly that it’s
just another distraction in my life. It’s a struggle. But I’ve just learned
recently that I have support I need. I guess that’s what makes it good for me.
There must be a flashing bright billboard or a streetlight
that’s shorting out 45 degrees from where I am. Every once in awhile I think I’m
showing signs of a seizure or seeing the blinding gates of heaven out of the
corner of my eye. It’s an annoyance! A quirk of the neighbourhood I’m in. I
should be thankful. At least I’m not a short kilometers north in the redlight
district of Regina. Sketchy stuff.
On second thought, I don’t think that’s Tide detergent.
Maybe Gain, or another brand I don’t use.
Time to go in to see if the suffocating air has exited my
room. Maybe I’ll even turn my light on.
Goodnight Regina! I hear my train coming.
1 comment:
Nice reflection but I can say without any doubt I wish you were around home for the summer I miss you a lot a life is way too short! IM THANKFUL you have friends and is enjoying it forvthe most part!
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